Thank god i know how it is to be loved. To be treasured and care for, made to feel like im de only one. See i had someone like dat. He treated me like i was so special. But i was not in love with him. Dat was missing and i was yearning for it. I treated him well never cheated on him, but could not return the affection. So i left him to be with someone i loved since junior high. Broke his heart when i did. I can still c his face. I married who i left him for and five years later what do i have? A cheater who care for only himself. Who treats me like crap and tell me plain out he dont treasure me. Every thing i do upsets me. He rarely sleeps with me but jerks off to porn every chance he gets. And he cheated on me many times. Got a woman in the states he talk 2 for jours. Yet i stay. Because of his daughter who never had a real family life dat came from a foster home. Cause of our two year old. My big son who needs a father figure. See i was widowed at 23. So this is what i had. If i coukd do it over again i would not b with my husband. I probably would go back…